I've stated this many times, that 2012 was a blessing and a curse, personally and professionally. I felt so lost and unsure of who I was anymore. It was like starting a fire and wanting to extinguish the flames but not sure how to go about doing it. I was powerless. I had no control over my actions and emotions. What was worse, was that Oniyah was here to witness this destructive behavior, and I felt like I wasn't being the mother she deserved. My decision to gain back the power I had lost was due to the fact that I am a mother, and Oniyah deserves to have the best of me and in every aspect, possible. I don't live with regrets, because the hardships is what got me to this place that I'm in. If things were perfect, I would of allowed myself to remain powerless. One of the most important things I had to try and learn to do is putting my needs first. When we allow ourselves to hand over so much of ourselves to a person, we're left feeling empty. This can mean retaliating with hate/revenge, settling for less than what we deserve, or allowing fear to stop us from moving forward. When we hold the power, we don't let the actions of another affect us emotionally or physically. We no longer choose to argue with a fool. When we hold the power, an unhealthy relationship is something we refuse to settle for. The thought/sight of he/she with another person, wouldn't deter us from moving on. When we hold the power in our lives, we believe that anything is possible. I found this new strength within myself that has allowed me to make changes in my life that is beneficial to ME and my daughter. It's the best feeling in the world to believe that I am capable of reaching my highest potential. I'm not allowing the doubters, to stand in my way. I'm envisioning myself crossing the finish line. I have a greater sense of the woman I am and I'm learning to love myself a little more each day. I'm getting reacquainted with who I am. I'm defining myself and not letting anyone to do it for me.
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